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what a lovely morning

2012-01-08T11:35:00.008Z

I woke up at 930am and just had my lovely breakfast- toast with jam+butter+nutella and a coffee in this lovely sunday morning.

Everything seems beautiful for me this morning even though the sky is cloudy.

I am going to start my revision for today.

I am full of energy today.

Nothing is impossible, I will be doing well for exam!!!

I am confident to say that I will be the best!!!

Good luck to myself...

Little Small Gift

2012-01-07T13:14:00.001Z

I just got a siu pao from my flatmate.

She brought the siu pao all the way from Malaysia.

I was happy to see the food from Malaysia.

I like to receive little gift from people.

It is not necessary a costly gift.

A candy or a sweet will do.

It will make me feel like on cloud nine even you give me a bun from supermarket.

If someone courier me some chinese new year snack now,

I will really appreciate...

the hottest topic in recent

2012-01-05T14:56:00.000Z

Is there a true friendship between male and female?!!

It is a tough question, right?!!

Do you have such a special friend in your life?!!

If no...

Where can get 1?!!

Do you really hope for 1?!!

Does such a guy exist in this world?!!

Or it is just a hallucination?!!

New year resolutions 2012

2012-01-01T16:50:00.002Z

Time flies... It is now 2012!!! It is my 3rd new year in Aberdeen. I have been to Aberdeen for 2 years and 4 months.

In 2012, I hope I can

do well in two of my master projects

get along well with my supervisors and everyone in the lab

get distintion for my master degree

get the studentship for PhD

get a bf who loves me, cherishes me and pampers me

lose 4kg of weight

And, I hope that

my parents, aunties are always happy and healthy

my younger sister does well in her studies

my brothers have a good plan for their future and be more mature

my cousins all have a prosperous year

my friends all have their dream come true

Finally, I hope that

all my dreams will come true in 2012

i miss u

2011-10-04T16:59:00.000+01:00

I miss malaysia, i miss my family and i miss you so so so much!!! I miss u guy who accompanied me for my 2 yrs of undergraduate studies in Aberdeen. Without u guy's accompany, Aberdeen is now an extremely boring place to me. How I wish I could travel back to those days we spent together in Aberdeen. Every corner in Aberdeen especially the social space and medical library is full of the memory with u guy. Every time I walk alone on the way back to my place, I feel that I'm so lonely and keep on thinking of those moment with u guy in Aberdeen. I really miss u guy...

wondering

2011-08-29T08:02:00.003+01:00

are you trying to avoid me? not replying my msg, not going out with me, there is always excuse when i ask you out... i am going back to UK soon... why you cannot spare some of ur time for me?

What a father told his daughter

2011-08-09T09:53:00.003+01:00

My dad told me that after he came back from UK he felt so sorry to me. He can give me money to spend but he can't bring a lot of friends to me and always be there for me. He know I always feel lonely after Emma and Keewah left Aberdeen and I have no many friends with me. He asked me to take bus when I go out, don't walk so far from a place to another, don't buy the reduced food which is going to expired soon. At home, everyone treat me like a little princess. In UK, I have to do everything by my own and learn to survive by myself. He know everything is so difficult to me and I have suffered a lot when I first came to Aberdeen. I am so touched. Home is always the shelter for us. If one day I lost everything I still have a lovely family and a sweet sweet home.

what a happy day

2011-08-04T16:09:00.002+01:00

I'm so happy today... After 4 months, I finally can meet Keewah... We met in Bugis MRT station... Then going for dinner together... It was about 2 hrs we met... It was pretty short... But I feel very happy... Hope that michelle won't go back to kluang tomorrow so that i got another chance to meet Keewah...

complicated

2011-07-31T17:07:00.003+01:00

I have back to Malaysia for 6 days... I missed the skype interview for the NTU PhD programe and it made me so sad... And also I wish I could see Keewah right after my flight landed... He is the person I want to see the most when I back to Malaysia... Really can't wait to see him... But I have so many things to settle before I can meet him in Singapore... Does he know how much I miss him?!! I am also tired of waiting for the person in charge of the PhD programe to contact me for the new interview time slot... It has been 6 days... How long I am going to wait for the email from them?!! If I don't get the chance of interview, I need to prepare for the start of my Master in UK, applying a student visa and a lot of things to do... Y can't everything in my life going smoothly?!! Or it is a punishment from the god because I did something wrong?!!

2011-06-16T22:02:00.002+01:00

Time flies...
I''ll graduate in this coming July...
It seems like yesterday I've just reached Aberdeen for the first time...
Boarding on the flight to Aberdeen in KLIA, I alone flied to this foreign, unfamiliar place to continue my degree...
In this place, I learnt to be independent, how to take care of myself, how to feed up myself by doing part time job...
In Aberdeen, I had washed the toilet, used the vacumn, cooked nasi lemak, changed the light bulb for the first time in my life and there were so many first time in Aberdeen...
Living far away from the homeland is not as easy as I thought before coming to Aberdeen...
Loneliness is the biggest enemy of mine in this foreign land especially during the first winter here...
I was nearly killed by loneliness...
Tears welled up from my eyes every time I missed home and when I felt alone...
The feeling of loneliness was getting stronger during the festive periods like Xmas, New Year...
But I was so lucky that I met Emma and her friends...
Every moment spending with you guys had been the lovely memory of mine in this foreign land...
Thanks for being my friends...
Living and studying in Aberdeen was a precious experience for me...

how sad is the truth

2011-05-29T23:14:00.004+01:00

I learnt a very precious lesson yesterday- no one will care about you even though u think the person is your best friend. I am wondering what friendship is. No one can really know my feeling except you experience it. How i trust you and believe that you will come to me when i am in trouble but i am totally wrong. I was so fearful and so helpless yesterday, sitting in the hospital waiting for the doctor from 1130pm to 1am. How I wish you could be there with me. I really felt like I was alone in the whole world and tears well up from my eyes. My throat was bleeding because i was choked by something in my throat when i was having supper after working. My hands were so cold and shivering, I was so scared if anything happen to me. My family is so far from me and there is no one whom i know well with me. I had never ever had such feeling- helpless, fearful, loneliness and abandoned. The only thing I could do was praying for that everything would be alright and believe in god. Only god is always there for me but not a friend. I think i should reassess our friendship after this incident.

2weeks since u left aberdeen

2011-04-20T12:01:00.001+01:00

It has been 2 weeks since the day you left aberdeen. When are you coming back? Will you come back? I miss you so much.

the 8th day u left Aberdeen

2011-04-15T11:00:00.002+01:00

After 1 week, i finally can talk to you. But we just talked for about 3 minutes on phone. You seem forget everything in Aberdeen. We are so far away from each other that can't meet each other everyday. Since the day you left, everyday is so torturing to me. You know I like you and you know you are important to me. During these days, I keep on thinking of you and always absence of mind. Every corner in Aberdeen are full of memories between you and I. The beach, cafe nero, Yu, my place, the bus stop...

WHY

2011-04-13T23:32:00.003+01:00

It has been 1 week you left Aberdeen. I miss you so much. Why you don't reply my sms? I know you are busy but reply a sms won't take you so much time. I have so many questions to ask you. You mean everything to me but i mean nothing to you.

Memories with you

2011-04-13T12:13:00.002+01:00

Rememebr the first time i met you was in dec 2009. We went to Edinburgh together. Then we joined a xmas eve party in John's place. And on xmas day, you guys came to my place to eat chicken rice. And it was the first time i cooked hainanese chicken rice. The next day, you went back to Nottingham. I thought I could not see you again. Surprisingly, we met again in London. It was a 3 day 2 night trips with you. After the trip, i thought we will never meet again except in MSN. But in summer 2010, you came to Aberdeen and stayed here for about 6 months. In these 6 months, i got to know you more and we spent most of the time together, eating, playing, travelling and working. You are very caring. You really helped me a lot in Yu. I miss those days we worked together in Yu. Then we travelled to York and Isle of skye together. I really miss the the trips. We spent the whole day together. And we played cards till late night. Do you still remeber, I massage for you when we were in scarborough. It was so funny. During the trip to Isle of skye, we talked a lot in the journey. And we always went to coffee in cafe nero. I like to go for coffee with you and only just two of us. And the very first time and the last time, we went to the beach together and it was just two of us. it was so precious to me. And I also miss those days just two of us had lunch together in social space. And at night, we had dinner together most of the time. I miss those days we spent together especially the 3 weeks before u leaving for Malaysia. I miss every moment that i spent with you in Aberdeen. I like the way you talk to me and also ur smile. I like everything of you. You are so special to me.

i'm not myself anymore

2011-04-13T11:51:00.003+01:00

I miss u so much. I want u to be mine. Can u tell me how u feel? Please tell me u feel the same. U mean everything to me. Please tell me ur answer, don't let me keep on waiting for u.

I lie awake at night

See things in black and white

I've only got you in my mind

You've made me blind

I lie awake and pray

That you will look my way

I have all this longing in my heart

I knew it right from the start

Oh my pretty pretty boy i love you

Like I never ever loved no one before you

Pretty pretty boy of mine

Just tell me you love me too

Oh my pretty pretty boy

I need you

Oh my pretty pretty boy I do

Let me inside

Make me stay right beside you

You stay a little while

And touch me with your smile

What can I say to make you mine

To reach out for you in time

i miss u

2011-04-10T12:54:00.002+01:00

It has been 4 days i don't see you. But i feel like it is ages. I miss you so much!!! Should i believe and keep waiting for you? In these four days, i only got 1 message from you. Why you are so difficult to know?!! I really miss you, Mr. Lee!!!!!!!!!!!!

2nd chinese new year in aberdeen

2011-02-05T11:48:00.002Z

this year was the 2nd cny in aberdeen. last year cny even though only emma and katherina celebrated cny with me, i had fun till the max. however, this year, there were so many of them celebrating cny with me, about 11 of us had dinner on the cny eve, i could not feel cny and not as happy as last year. really miss those days in elphinestone road flat. it was the happier moment of mine in aberdeen. miss emma and katherina so much!!!

i'm crazy

2011-01-09T22:10:00.002Z

recently, i spent a lot of money on shopping. my mood is bad recently and i just spend the money like running water. i go out for hi-tea everyday and go shopping almost everyday. i feel like dying. i can't do anything on my studies. i can't c any direction in front of me. i want to go home. i need a hug seriously and i need someone to lean on.

stupid+foolish=current me

2011-01-04T15:13:00.002Z

I found out i have been suffered from the serious mentally sickness. I am dumb, stupid, foolish, crazy, unreasonable, irritable, bad-tempered, impatient and emotional. I need a cure for it but i don't know where can i get the cure. My sickness is similar to the cancer therapy; there is treatment for symptoms relief whereas no cure for it. The relief is short-term and i am still haunted with the illness. Some of the stimulations from surrounding environment also accelerate the development of my ailment. Now i need to find a drug to cure my illness, hope i can succeed so that i can recover soon.

crazy, tired, down

2010-12-09T21:12:00.002Z

I feel so down today...
I'm so tired...
I want to go home...
I have lots of things to do...
I'm so lonely...
I need someone to accompany...
I miss home...
I need love...
I need hug...
I wish there is someone i can lean on...
I have so many things to bother...
I miss those days...
I feel dying...
I hate the crazy weather in aberdeen...
I feel super cold in this winter...

recently

2010-12-02T15:09:00.002Z

I started doing a part time job as a waitress a month ago. It was my very first job. I have never worked before and it was a good experience for me. I was exposed to a very different environment. I met various people including customers and the staffs in the restaurant. Some are good; some are bad; some are caring; some are cold-blooded; some are crazy; some are gentle; some are impolite. Sometimes not feel like i can really mix with those people working in the restaurant. Maybe we are from different background and we have different education. And i realize that there is nobody will treat me like a princess like my parents and family treat me. But, at least, i like the job to serve the customer. I enjoy the work and it can fill up my free time so that i am not feeling alone. But i can feel that some friends around me are really good to me and i appreciate.

My 1st term of final year is going to end in 2 week time. Work is keep on coming in, including problems solving, essays, presentation, journals etc. I have to start doing my reading on my final project and get some background reading. I need to prepare for my PhD interview in case i get the chance to interview. Hopefully i get the PhD project, may god blessed me. I have so much things to do even xmas holiday i have to do these work. I need someone to lean on when i feel tired and down. Waiting for the person to appear in my life.

10.10.10

2010-10-10T21:49:00.003+01:00

It is a special day. David is engaged with his gf today, so happy for him. He is the first 1 of my best friends who engaged. And today met Justine, it has been 4 months i don't see her. Tomorrow have to be in medical school from 11am to 4pm, a tiring day. I know i should not complaint tired compared to Adam. He is so pity that have to go out from his place at 8am++ everyday and sometimes works till 12am.

a sunday outing

2010-10-05T21:33:00.002+01:00

It was Sunday and had been 2 weeks back from Malaysia. Going out with Adam and Keewah, we went to the international market in the city central about 3pm. There were a lot of stalls selling food and there were some selling handicraft and jewellery like earings and necklace. Adam and Keewah bought the special burger, Adam having a ostrich burger annd Keewah having a kangaroo burger. I bought some Italian pastries and they were delicious. I like it so much. They were all almond flavour. But it cost me a lot. After that, we went to the beach. It was the first time i had been to the beach. The beach is so beautiful. Then we had dinner in a restaurant there. It was a nice day. I spent a lot but very happy.

all of sudden

2010-09-30T19:36:00.005+01:00

Suddenly feel like i need a boyfriend who can always beside me, take care of me and love me. There are many friends around me but i still feel lonely sometimes. I need someone who can be with me whenever i need someone to accompany or when i'm stressed. I'm still waiting for my Penang guy. I have been waiting for you for 1 year. I'm 22yrs old already and where are you now?!! I need you so much. Honours year will be a stressful year. I really need someone to stay by my side.

11days in Aberdeen from the Day I Came Back from Malaysia

2010-09-29T22:48:00.005+01:00

First day back to aberdeen, with Avi's help, I managed to move all my belongings from Nana and Tamema's place. It was a raining day. It was so cold. And we first went to Morisson then Nana's place and last Tamema's place. To go Nana's place, we took a bus. It was nice to waiting for bus in a raining day at the bus stop with someone. I always wait for the bus alone, so lonely. And when came back from Nana's place, we were running to catch the bus. It was the first time i had run to catch a bus. It was interesting. The night i slept without duvet and it was freezing. I wore my winter clothes to sleep at night, so funny.

Second day, I went to Justine's place and had dinner there. Emma and apple cooked for me. After dinner, I went to Emma'splace and took my duvet and pillow back from her. I had a nice sleep with my lovely duvet.

Third day, I went to city with Allisan. It was the first time we met. I had dinner with her mum and cousin. I bought some daily necessities and it costed me about 20pound.

Fourth day, it was mooncake festival. There was a party in Justine's place. There were a lot of ppl. It was the first time i met Guxin after 3month time. In the party, I met Ben, Mengjun, Wanwan and 3of guxin's friends. It was a nice party and we had the mooncake. I was staying overnight in Justine's place.

Fifth day, I had brunch at Justine's place. Apple cooked for me and Emma. Then, Emma came to my place and I went to meet my studies adviser. After adviser meeting, i went to registry for my passport check.

Sixth day, I went to Sainsbury's and bought a lot of things and it costed me 20pound.

Seventh day, I went to Sainsbury's again in the morning. Then in the evening, I met Emma in Mac Robert building and we went to Lidl together. We were having a small birthday party for apple in Emma's place. Adam and Keewah were coming back from their Paris trip and I got a key chain from them.

Eighth day, i went to city for shopping with Emma but I din get anything. Then went to Justine's place to help apple move house and had lunch there and baked cookies there. At night, there was a birthday party in Emma's place. Allisan was going with me. Guxin and 1 of her friends joint us for the party too. We also played a nice game. We were enjoying in the party.

Nineth day, first day of class after 3month holiday. It was exhausted. And I was told about the honours yr project. I met Ben, Mengjun, Jessie and Avi in medical school. And Ben introduced a malaysian girl, Jane to me and she is from Malacca. There was a dinner gathering in my place.

Tenth day, suppose there was a class from 10-12pm but it was cancelled. I walked all the way from Old Aberdeen to foresterhill and the class was cancelled and I walked back to Old Aberdeen. It took me 40mins to walk to medical school from my place. Then having lunch in the hub with Adam, Apple and Emma. After that, we went to Sainsbury's and cooked dinner in my place.

Eleventh day, went to school by walking and came back by bus because the weather was so bad. Again, they were having dinner in my place. Exhaused. But at least there was my favourite dessert, red bean soup.and it tasted nice.

Sigh

2010-09-08T16:31:00.003+01:00

There are 10more days to stay in Malaysia, i need to go back to Aberdeen soon. I don't want to go back. It is so lonely in Aberdeen, not like in Malaysia, i have mum and sis at home all the time, dad will come home in the evening. Mum will prepare dinner for me and have dinner together with my family everyday. I am the apple of my parents eyes, they will give me whatever i want and they will bring me to wherever i want to go. It is so great to be at home. My princess life in Malaysia is going to end. The miserable is waiting for me.T.T My prince charming please come and rescue me from the abyss of misery.

Happy

2010-08-17T16:41:00.002+01:00

I found out that most of my friends in Aberdeen will still be in Aberdeen when i go back to Aberdeen. Emma will stay till december or january; Avi will stay till november; John will stay till october; Adam and Homan will continue PhD. I just got to know Keewah is in Aberdeen also. Shareni will continue her MSc in Bristol where Sheeyun and Zeryun further their studies, next time can visit them in Bristol. Siewmun will be in London. There are so many of them in UK, so i won't be alone for my final year.

bad mood

2010-08-09T13:53:00.001+01:00

today not in good bad... angry with everyone...

an interesting day

2010-07-15T15:46:00.002+01:00

Today was special and there were many things happened on me today. I went to post office at noon to post a letter that replied the offer of honours year. I thought the letter was so light and won't cost me a lot but when i was told it was RM84 i thought was my hearing problem. The worst thing was i had no enough money and i had RM60 with me only. I didn't bring my atm card and credit cards even my handphone, what i had with me was I/C. I was so helpless. Then i told the staff i had no enough money and i had to go home and take money and went back to the post office again later.

In the evening, i was watering the vegetables and plants in front of my house. I didn't know why i was not balance and fell on to the ground when i was watering those plants. I fell down and sat on the ground. My mum's lady's finger plants were flatten by me.

Anyway, my brother bought me a drink today. He bought me bubble tea with pearl. He told me kept it as secret and didn't let my mum knew that he bought it for me. But i got caught by my mum when i was drinking it in the living room while i was facebooking. I thought she was in the kitchen to do her work but she suddenly came to living room and i got caught in red-handed.

It was an interesting day.

the feel of coming back to malaysia

2010-06-26T20:27:00.002+01:00

Yesterday i reached home and i felt so great to be at home. I had left my home for 9 more months, so amazing. I was so happy to see so many clothes in my wardrobe. In Aberdeen, i always wear the same clothes and now i can wear different clothes everyday, so good. The food is ready for me every meal and i don't need to cook. I also don't need to wash my clothes. Today was the 2nd night in Malaysia and these 2 nights i came back home around 2++am. I kept on telling my bros to come home early but now i was the one who came back late. I enjoy every moment in Malaysia. I love everything in Malaysia except weather.

complicated feeling

2010-06-16T07:53:00.002+01:00

I have been in Aberdeen for 9 months, going back to Malaysia for summer holiday soon. But i feel sad at the same time. I will miss my friends here, emma, adam, john, apple, justine, jessie... I have known them for 9months and they are like my family especially emma and adam. When i first came to Aberdeen, i feel so lonely and looked forward to the time to go home. But now, i feel sad to leave my friends here. My feeling is so complicated. I feel happy to go home yet sad to leave my friends. We cannot see each other often, eat together and go to food shopping together anymore. They will finish their course in August and leave Aberdeen. When i come back from my summer holiday in Malaysia, they all leave already. We cannot meet each other anymore. It is so sad. This feeling is same as the last few days in Nilai. Those in Nilai at least we are all from the same country but now my friends are from different countries and it is difficult for us to meet up. All good things must come to the end...

a lonely thursday afternoon

2010-05-20T16:29:00.003+01:00

I made the ham and egg sandwich for my lunch today. This was the first time i made this sandwich in Aberdeen. There were iceberg lettuce, onion and cheese in the sandwich. In Malaysia, my mum always made this for me. Every time i went back to Nilai from Kluang, she would make this sandwich for me and i would eat it in the train on the way back to Nilai. My lunch today was ham and egg sandwich with a cup of coffee. It was a sumptuous lunch for me. I spent about 2.5hrs in the morning for revision. After that, i went out to get my ingredients for my ham and egg sandwich. Next thursday i will have my first paper. There is 1 more week to my first paper. I am so stressed because the past year questions all are very difficult. I need to shoulder to lean on.

colourless

2010-05-13T21:27:00.002+01:00

I feel so lonely now... I need a hug... I miss home so much... I feel dying... I'm so stressed... I'm going to be crazy... Headache... I want to go home... I miss my parents... I need someone to stay beside me and support me... My head is going to burst... Exam is coming soon...

my birthday 2010

2010-05-06T00:06:00.002+01:00

I had a joint birthday party with adam and john on 2 may, sunday. The party was nice and i was happy. During my birthday i got a lot of wishes from my friends and also birthday cards and birthday gifts from my friends. I was very happy. And on 4 may, my birthday i got a birthday cake from adam. This was the 2nd time i celebrated my birthday abroad, the first time was last year in melbourne. Thanks for my dearest friends for the wishes, cards and gifts., i love you all.

first week of school after 3 weeks of easter break

2010-04-24T23:41:00.004+01:00

This week was the first week of school after easter break and it was very tired as well as busy. I had to finished a lab report and a presentation. The weather in this week was extremely weird and abnormal. It was snowing and there was 4 seasons in 1 day. It drove me crazy. 20 April 2010, Tuesday was a terrible day for me. I had class from 10am to 1pm in old aberdeen campus then another class from 2pm to 3pm in medical school. And the distance between old aberdeen campus and medical school is 30minutes walk. On that day, i planned to take a bus to go medical school because it was snowing and windy. I was standing at the bus stop for about 30 minutes to wait for the bus in snowing and windy weather ended up the bus broken down at a bus stop before the bus stop i waited for the bus. And it was 145pm, i left 15minutes and i had no choice but run to medical school in the snow. If the same thing happened in Malaysia, there was always someone to fetch me to school. It was so sad. I went to medical school everyday except thursday for class in this week. Then Tuesday night had dinner with Adam, Emma and Adam's friend, Homan. Homan is from Hong kong. It was nice to have dinner together. I cook fried spaghetti, tomato cheese omelette and dinosaur shape nuggets. Emma cooked miso soup with fish and seaweed. We had pancake after dinner.

Then on Wednesday, i had lunch with Adam and Avi in the hub. Before that we had coffee in the tiki cafe in the hub. And Adam bought me the coffee. It was Avi's last day in Aberdeen. He will do his placement in Edinburgh. It was so sad to me because someone was leaving me. After lunch, we walked to bus stop and i went back went Avi got up to the bus. When i reached home, i straight away started doing my lab report.

On Friday, something made me cry. I got my 4 of assignments back and i got CAS 11 and CAS12 for 2 of the 4 respectively. CAS 11 is 47-49% and CAS 12 is 50%. I felt so sad when i saw my mark. I cried while looked at my mark. The last time i got 48% was in Form 5 in my chemistry test and after that i had never got mark below 65%. It was a heavy hit to me. And till now i still felt upset.

I was writing this post at saturday night and i was going to sleep soon. Tomorrow Adam and John will cook dinner for Emma and I, looking forward to it. It is the first time guys cook for me.

London trip

2010-04-07T11:08:00.004+01:00

I went to London about 1 week during my first week of easter break. I went there with Adam then we met Keewah and Eva in London. It was a 12hr journey from Aberdeen to London. Luckily there was someone to talk to in the bus. We went to a few musuems and some monument and the landmarks of London such as tower bridge, London eye and big ben. Besides that, we went to kensington palace, buckingham palace and Madame Tussaud wax musuem. I liked the wax museum also... It was interesting. The natural history museum and the british museum were the museums i like the most. The things inside these two museums were more attractive to me. Then the time we visisted the british museum, there was fire alarm and we were evacuated and it was 1 april, april fool. The most excited thing was i got to eat Malay food like nasi lemak, nasi campur and kuih-kuih in London. I spent the first 2 nights with Adam and Keewah. We stayed in a backpacker hostel. First night, there was an Italian girl in our room and the second night just 3 of us.

I left Adam and Keewah to siewmun's place in the thursday afternoon. It was the first time i took tube alone in London. I was so happy and excited when i met siewmun. Siewmun is the first 1 i met because she came to the tube station and brought me to her place. Then I had a late lunch with siewmun and huiwen. We ate char siew, siew yo and roasted duck rice. It was so delicious. I had already 7 months din eat this. Then we went chinese supermarket bought the ingredients for cooking and food. After that, we met mona and shareni in ASDA. We had nasi lemak as dinner and teh tarik at 1230am on that day. After dinner, we played card. Then the next day, we went to korean restaurant for lunch. After lunch, we headed to Oxford St. for shopping. I bought many things and spent 20pound for shopping on that day. After shopping we went back and for dinner siewmun cooked bah kut teh. After dnner, we played card and chatting in shareni's kitchen. It was delicious. On saturday, we went to ASDA to buy the ingredients and food for party at night. We had a wonderful party at night. Mona's parents also joined us for the party. We took a lot of photos and i met many new friends. They are all very friendly. Then i also met siewmun's special 1 upon my arrival. The guy is quite good. On sunday, we went to malaysian hall for lunch then chatting there. After that, we went to the shopping complex nearby jalan jalan. Then had coffee and chatted in starbuck till 8pm. After that, we separated in bayswater tube station. I didn't want to go back Aberdeen and i wanted to stay with them. It was the end of my London trip. I enjoyed the trip so much. The only regret for the trip was i couldn't visit Auntie Pang. I think i will visit her next time i go to London.

time flies...

2010-03-26T23:43:00.002Z

I have been to Aberdeen for 6months++. I have bought the ticket back to Malaysia. Going back Malaysia, i feel so excited and happy but at the same time feel sad to leave Aberdeen. It is because when i come back from Malaysia i may not see my flatmate again. She won't be here after August. We meet each other everyday and we go food shopping together twice a week. Sometimes we go to school together and back from school together. I'm going to miss her in my next academic year. The 3 week easter holiday starts today. I'm going to London on 29 March. I will meet Huiwen, Xiuwen, Mona and 2 juniors in London. I miss them so much!!! I'm looking forward to the London trip. I think it will be a wonderful and unforgetable trip. It is 12hr journey from Aberdeen to London by bus. It sounds terrible, 12 hrs in the bus. Anyway, it is the cheapest transport to London. I'm stil thinking whether want to visit Aunty Pang or not... During this holiday, i need to do 1 essay and maybe a presentation. The student life in Aberdeen is so miserable, i have ton of works to do and books to read even it is holiday...

hAppY

2010-03-13T17:39:00.002Z

One of my friends will continue PhD... I'm so happy to hear that... I won't be alone for my honour year... Happy happy happy... Hope he can pass the interview!!!

recently

2010-03-04T20:56:00.006Z

Spring is coming, autumn and winter are over. I see sunshine everyday. I'm looking forward to my birthday. Yesterday i was invited to a party but i didn't go. I wanted to go but it was too late and i had to come back home alone. Recently found out there is someone quite good and maybe he is the person i'm waiting for. Anyway time will give me the answer. I got my result a few weeks ago. It was not as good as i expected so felt a bit disappointed. I'm quite lazy these few days. I'm not reading the books, reading the handout given by the lecturers only. I miss my home so much that i can't do anything and sit in front of laptop staring blankly. I'm planning to go out this saturday or sunday but i don't know where to go. Saturday night have dinner with my flatmates.

Chinese new year 2010

2010-02-14T18:14:00.003Z

This is the 21st chinese new year in my life and it is the 1st chinese new year without family around. It is quite sad and lonely to celebrate chinese new year in Aberdeen without family and friends. I miss my best friends so much. Old friends are always more caring and lovely compare to new friends. You are always be there for me, accompany me when i feel alone. You understand me well. We always have endless topics to talk even though we do not see each other for a long time . The bond between us is everlasting. You make me feel i'm not alone. You are the best for me. Old + best friends are like family. I can really see the different between friends and best friends. Best friends will do everything to make you happy but friends not. I love u!!! I miss my family too... I love my family!!! Thanks for your love for me... I was crying when i talked to my family through skype in the new year eve and also the 1st day of chinese new year. Miss those days at home, having dinner with family, drinking some wine after dinner, decorating and cleaning the house for chinese new year. Dressing up myself and going out to visit relatives and friends, collecting ang pow then playing card, all these things i can't do in Aberdeen. T.T Nobody plays card with me and i have to go class and do assignments and lab reports. Last time when i studied in nilai during chinese new year, my dad always went to nilai to fetch me home for chinese new year holiday and he didn't let me taking bus or train to go home. When industrial training in Banting, he also went to Banting and fetch home me for chinese new year holiday. After the holiday he would fetch me back to nilai and Banting. Parents will do everything for their children!!! I love my parents!!!

Lonely...

2010-02-08T22:47:00.004Z

Today i felt very lonely. I miss my home so much. Tomorrow i have lab session from 10am to 5pm. I have no partner for the lab session. I hate to be alone. I felt like no friend here so lonely. I am wondering why the lab session here have to work in pair?!! Why it can't be individual practical work. Last semester i worked with my friend, evelyn from belgium. She is exchanged student just came here for 1 semester and she is back to belgium already. This semester i have no more friend. I have been waiting for a person from mooncake festival till halloween followed by xmas and new year, now almost chinese new year the person hasn't appeared yet. Should i keep on waiting and believe the person who told me the story?!! I'm tired of waiting. Where r u now?!! Where is the person who cares me, loves me and cherishes me?!! Chinese new year is coming soon, but no family with me--- sad and lonely.

1st day of 2nd semester

2010-02-02T16:01:00.004Z

Yesterday was my 1st day of 2nd semester. I have all my classes in Medical School which is not in the main campus. It is about 30 to 40 minute walking distance from main campus. I woke up at 7am to prepare my lunch for the day because my class finished at 3pm and needed to have lunch in Medical School. I had my lunch with Tamema, Adam and John. It was the first time i had lunch with Tamema. The dish John cooked was delicious and its taste was same as the taste of my mum cook. Having lunch with them feel like in Nilai that time, so long din eat lunch with friends after class, so happy. It was so tired to have class in Medical School. When i came back to room, i had no mood to do anything. I'm looking forward to chinese new year even though here has no any chinese new year celebration.

sleepless night

2010-01-30T02:54:00.003Z

I have finished my exam!!! But i can't sleep tonight... It is 2.58am... My brain is hyperactive now... I don't drink coffee today!!! I want to sleep but i can't!!! Help!!! Tomorrow will go to a friend's place to have nasi lemak. First i don't want to go because i need to go there by myself and my flatmate doesn't want to go. Then another friend told me something and influence me. What he said made me feel guilty if i'm not going. No choice have to go in the end even i have to go alone. Anyway just think of nasi lemak will be worth to go there. Long time no eat nasi lemak already. Just now i went to Sainsbury's, a supermarket like Tesco and ASDA. I bought chicken wings because i want to eat grilled chicken wings. Then i also bought 8 yogurts each 53p but if 4 for 1pound. It was really cheap and i saved 2.24 pound which was equal to RM 13.44.

the night before last paper

2010-01-28T22:04:00.002Z

Tomorrow i have my last paper. I started revision a month ago. I have 2 papers only and the gap between the 2 papers is 1 week. It is so turturing while waiting for the next paper. I really study very hard for this exam. I study harder than when i was in Nilai and i hope my effort can get the reward. In Nilai, i seldom read the books but here i read a lot of books for sitting the exam. After the exam, i have nothing to do also. Actually planning to go Glasgow after exam but my flatmate cannot go because she needs to pass up an essay on 2 February so we cancel the Glasgow trip. Chinese new year is coming soon. This is the first time i don't celebrate Chinese new year with my family. I miss my family so much!!! Planning to go shopping but i can't get anyone to accompany. One of friends who is an exchange student already went back to Hong Kong then another one has boyfriend already and hard to see her. I have already 1 more month not seen her. My new semester starts on 1st Feb so not very long gap after the exam, it is 2 day holiday only. I think i will stay in my room and watch the video from youtube.

God bless me!!!

my feeling

2010-01-14T13:14:00.000Z

I need someone whom i can rely on, someone who loves me like my family do, someone who is always by my side sharing my happiness, sadness and lonliness, someone who will play with me, someone who cares about me, someone who can cook for me, someone who can do anything for me... because i am tired not only physically but also mentally. I hate to be away from home. At home i was like a princess, i would get whatever i wanted, i could go wherever i wanted to go and i would feel the love of my family and everyone loves my so much. However in Aberdeen, i feel like i am the puppy who is abandoned by its owner. Exam is around the corner, the pressure of exam increases every time i breathe. The exam is MEQ and no MCQ. There are a lot of drug's names to remember and also their pharmacological effects. If in Malaysia, i would definitely go home during revision week and my mum would cook a lot of good stuffs for me to eat. In Aberdeen, i have no good stuffs to eat somemore i need to cook for myself. The weather in Aberdeen is really terrible. It is cloudy all the day there is no sun light. The sky turns dark around 330pm. It looks like 8 or 9pm in Malaysia even it is 430pm or 5pm. The weather drives me crazy. The day time is very short.

a boring saturday

2010-01-09T15:54:00.000Z

Today i have no mood to do anything. I feel like dying. Suddenly feel like want to go home. and i eat non stop since morning. I'm something wrong today and i'm crazy. Maybe today is saturday, there are no many people online. I'm very bored! I want to go out play but in Aberdeen here no place to go. Now already 4pm, and i have done nothing except eating, wasting the time only. Why the life here so boring?!! Why there is nothing interesting happen around me?!! I want to go home!!! T.T

midnight

2010-01-08T00:34:00.000Z

Now us 1235am of 9 Jan 2010. I can't sleep today maybe due to the coffee i drank in the evening. I just finish reading my note. I feel like want to find someone to chat with and then i check the contact in my hp and i can't find anyone i can msg to. If in nilai, in the midnight i sure could get Xiuwen, David, Alvin, Kevin and Megala to have supper together in the canteen. Eat the burger together. Here like nobody will come out in the late night except the person is crazy. Here i have nobody to find especially at night. I have already 3++ months not taken supper and proper breakfast. The proper breakfast means dim sum, fishball noodle, curry noodle, beef noodle, nasi lemak, sandwiches... My breakfast here is oat+horlick and i eat it everyday because it is simple and easy to prepare just add hot water then done. And also i have put on weight for 3kg in Aberdeen. It is just 3month time, i gain 3kg. 1 month 1 kg till June then will gain 6more kg. Oh my god!!! Then i have to buy new clothes and all my clothes in Malaysia can't go in. I have been here for almost 4 months already, i still haven't met the person whom i suppose to meet and i think i should forget about him. My life is back to the mode before xmas break. Everyday wake up, eat breakfast go to library then come back for lunch then go to library again then come back for dinner and sleep. It is so boring. I want to go home!!! I have already planned my summer holiday. I want to go either Vietnam or Yunnan. I already told Michelle and asked her whether want to go with me or not. I saw LeeFon's facebook photos taken during his vietnam trip and looked nice. I feel that the food in vietnam also quite nice. I like the vietnamase pork chop rice and the spring roll. I have been here for 3++ months but my english still the same no improvement. Now already 110am, there is someone in the backyard of my apartment cleaning the snow on his car. I'm wondering is he same as me drink coffee and can't sleep.Tomorrow i'm going to ASDA, the supermarket for food shopping. I want to buy carrots, apples, ginger and coconut milk. Planning to cook nasi lemak but don't know jadi tak jadi.

27 Dec 2009 ~ 3 Jan 2010

2010-01-03T00:14:00.001Z

The chicken rice i cooked was so delicious! I couldn't imagine i could cook such delicious chicken rice. Then we all chatted in the kitchen and Grace also brought the cookies she baked. The cookies tasted not bad, i liked it. Then on 28 Dec, I went to shopping again with Emma to buy the skirt for Michelle. Unfortunately there was no her size and i bought a short pants for myself. Then the departure time for the bus Grace and keewah took was 715pm but they told us 725pm. Luckily emma and i already in the bus station around 530pm. Because the bus station was in a shopping complex. After Keewah and Grace got on to the bus, Emma, Adam and I went to ASDA. Then i thought Bus 20 would go into our Uni and we changed from Bus 1 to Bus 20. But during public holiday the Bus 20 won't go into our Uni and it will follow the Bus 1 route.

Then on 31 Dec, Emma and i went to Sainsbury's and bought some ingredients to cook special new year eve dinner. I cooked speghetti with 2 types of sauce. They were beef curry sauce and seafood white sauce. Both was delicious. Emma grilled some beef too. Then we had wine which Katrina, the holland girl in my flat bought. And Guxin, a china girl from next aprtment also joined us for the dinner. She bought ginger cake. We took photos and watched movie together then countdown together and watched the fireworks. And I slept at 4am.

Then the next day, 1 Jan 2010, Emma, Katrina and i was invited to Guxin's flat to have dinner. I cooked broccoli on the day and Guxin cooked 2 dishes and Emma cooked rice and katrina brought some cookies there. I brought a cake and a bottle of sparkling juice there. We finished the dinner and chatted and ate the dessert that Guxin cooked till 1030pm. Then when back to our flat, Emma and i chatted again till 340am. And this morning, i was awaked from sleep because my leg got cramp.

Today i went to Lidl with Emma and bought a lot of things spent about 6pound. I bought chicken drumstick because it was very cheap 1kg 2pound only. And i eat non stop since back from Lidl. I think i will gain a lot of weight. I want to lose weight. I should lose 5-7kg.

I prefer the life like this. I was very enjoyed. But the happy hours pass very fast, holiday is going to finish. I don't want to sleep so early.

Boxing Day

2009-12-26T22:46:00.000Z

It was the 1st Boxing Day in UK for me. I went with Grace, Adam's friend from Nottingham. She is Malaysian too but studies in Nottingham. Shopping with Malaysian was so different with others. Last time i went shopping with Gu Xin, a girl from China, couldn't feel home 1. When shopping with Grace, i felt like i was in Malaysia. I bought 1 dress, 1 skirt and 1 blouse and cost me around 30 pound. I like the dress very much. It is in purple colour. I already very long time don't go shopping. We shop from 11am till 5pm. It was so enjoyed.I was very very happy today. Then tomorrow i'm going to cook chicken rice for my friends, adam, justine, grace, keewah, emma, john and gu xin. Grace and Keewah will go back to Nottingham on 28 dec, feel sad because when they leave nobody can play with me already.

edinburgh trip + xmas eve potluck

2009-12-25T00:16:00.000Z

I went to Edinburgh on 22nd and 23rd Dec. I went in the 22nd morning and back in the 23rd evening. It was a wonderful trip. And i know 2 more Malaysian and 1 Chinese. We went to Edinburgh Castle, National Museum of Edinburgh, Museum of Childhood, Xmas Market and Calton Hill. We stayed in the backpacker hostel. It was the first time stayed in the backpacker hostel. The funniest thing was we cooked dinner in the backpacker hostel and we ate ice-cream after dinner. Then Calton Hill was the place i like the most among all the places i went to in Edinburgh. I suggest u all go to the Calton Hill when u all come to Scotland. But i think the scenery is prettier in winter because the hill is covered with snow. The scenery there was so nice. Then i had eaten Subway as lunch for these 2 days. And 6 of us stayed in 1 room with own bed, it was so interesting. Normally in Malaysia, we will book 1 hotel room then maybe a few ppl squeeze in 1 bed and some sleep on sofa. I like Edinburgh a lot.

Then in the xmas eve, we were having potluck in John's house. It was like a family gathering. First time i felt home in Aberdeen. I was very happy. Then i cooked sambal chicken. It tasted nice. The sambal chicken made me feel like eating dinner at home. Then i got to know many ppl during the gathering. And i took a photo with Justine, a girl from Malaysia for the 1st time since we had known each other for 3months. Then, there were a lot of food and there were all asian food. It really felt like in Malaysia. Then we took lot of photos and played just like in what i usually played with huiwen, ct, siewmun, muhyuan, david, alvin and kevin. Miss those days a lot... Generally i was very happy and felt home in this xmas eve even though no xmas gift. I bought a box of toblerone for myself.

3 month anniversary

2009-12-19T20:06:00.000Z

I have been in aberdeen for 3 months already. My lecture for the 1st sem in 3rd year finished on wednesday and thursday my xmas break started. During the last lecture on Wednesday, i got my mock exam paper back. I got a 2nd upper grade for the paper. I feel that it is very difficult to get 1st class honour grade here. If in Malaysia, the same answer i will get a first class honour mark which is around 70% and above. Xmas break is very boring nothing to do besides study. I have my final exam in January. It started snowing on thursday but very light only. Then the snow fall was getting heavier on friday. I was so excited during snowing especially when the road and the floor covered with the snow, all r white. This was the first time had seen snow. Outside is very cold and not feel like want to move when sit in front of the laptop and feel lazy to go out. In the room is warm but outside is cold. It is a nice experience that cannot get to experience in Malaysia but i still prefer the weather in Malaysia. I love Malaysia. During these 3 months i have learnt a lot of things, not only knowledge from the study, but also i develop more living skills like changing light bulb, washing bedsheet, using vacuum, running my own household and communication skill. However i feel that i still live in my own space and i don't really mix with others. And i miss my home very much. Miss my family even though we chat through skype everyday. I should be more independent. Anyway already 3 months i live without my family in aberdeen, 3 months nobody cook, clean and take care of me i still alive mean that i can live alone. Sometimes i will feel very lonely, because there is nobody i can really talk to. And there is no one who can be really trusted here, so it is difficult to share the feeling and the loneliness with someone. Then now is xmas break and everyone also goes home and go travel around. And can see the xmas deco everywhere, full of festive air. It makes me feel even more lonely without family. The xmas ambience here is similar to the raya or chinese new year in Malaysia, everyone books air ticket, train ticket and bus ticket to go home. I really miss Malaysia. Although i have 2 chinese malaysian friends and 1 taiwanese flatmate and a few friends frm china and HK and we speak mandarin, i cannot get the feeling of home from chatting with them. I need the feeling of home, the sweet sweet feel. And also i miss my friends in Malaysia very much especially my best friend, scokwei. 3 months had passed, i still haven't met my predestined prince charming. My prince charming, where are you now?!!

these few days

2009-12-12T21:10:00.000Z

Yesterday the light bulb in my room was spoilt, then i needed to change the new bulb by myself. It was so different from Malaysia. In nilai, when there was damage of bulb or anything in the room, i just went to AO and lodged a report, they would send a person to my room to change the bulb for me. But in Aberdeen here, i had to go to the AO reception and reported then collected the bulb from there and changed by myself. It was the first time i changed a light bulb. First i thought it was easy but it was not. I took around 15 mins to take off the old bulb. And i only realized that my bulb was spoilt when i came back from class and it was about 330pm already. The AO closed at 430pm or 5pm then i rushed to the AO because i didn't want to stay in dark for 3 days. It was quite far from my flat to the AO it was about 500m to 1km. I went there 3 times. First time to report. Second time was to get a new bulb because i didn't know the shape of the head of the bulb that fitted for my room when i reported. Then the 3rd time was to change the light bulb because the new bulb the receptionist gave me didn't work. And to put back the new bulb i took around 15 minutes too. I would like to ask for help from my flatmates when i tried to change the light bulb, but there was nobody in the flat, they were all out. I was so helpless at the moment. From this incident, i have learnt that to live alone, we not only need to know how to cook, clean the house and wash clothes, but also have to know how to change light bulb and know some home repairing skills. It is not easy to live alone.

I'm not feeling well and can't sleep well at night recently. I'm very moody too. Today feel very tired and miss my home so much!!! It is about -2 degree celcius now and very cold. I'm alone in the room currently. I miss my home so much. I will go to Edinburgh with my friends on either 21 or 22 dec. It is a 2days 1night trip. Every time i will feel excited when there is a trip but i don't feel so for this trip. Maybe i'm too stress these few days. Now the place i want to go the most is my home- i want to go home!!! Even though in weekends, i spend most of my time in library and dating with the books. I have no holiday here. I hope i can have a rest during xmas break. Then on xmas eve there is a party in my friend's flat. It is potluck, we need to bring 1 dish to the party. I'm planing to cook something but i have no cooking utensil and it is difficult to bring the dish all the way to his flat. Let's see first, if i have mood to cook then i will cook something nice if i have no mood to cook jz simply cook something that can be eaten.

Winter

2009-12-02T13:15:00.001Z

It is winter now. It is the first winter in UK. I'm looking forward to the 1st snow. The rain water on the road is frozen and become ice. There is also a layer of ice on the road. The fallen leaves and the grass is frozen too. There is mist when breathing and talking. It is so interesting. It is totally different from Malaysia. And in the car park, the cars all are covered with a layer of ice. And here i can wear 4 layers of clothes and walk for 30 mins without sweating while in Malaysia i will be wet and fainted. The wind is so strong that makes the temperature drops. It is freezing however i like it!!! I want to make snowman after snowing. In this cold weather, having a cup of hot coffee makes me warm and feel like at home. Now start thinking of how to celebrate the xmas here. I have no idea about how to celebrate xmas without family and friends and xmas gifts. I think this year won't get xmas gift and the xmas feast. Maybe in this xmas i will meet my prince charming as well. Haha... I think too much...

i miss u

2009-12-01T21:33:00.000Z

I miss my grandma so much!!! Is she looking at me all the time?!! I can't feel her now... Before this, i could feel that she was jz beside me and looked at me all the time... I feel very lonely most of the time in Aberdeen and i can't feel her... She was with me when i was in Melbourne. During i went to Nilai to take my final result in January, she followed me too... And during i went to KL to do my visa to UK, she was with me too... I can feel when she is around me... I miss her so much. I was scared when i felt she was around me but when she is not around me i miss her... It is contradiction... I always carried her photo in my purse but my mum had taken away the photo before i came to Aberdeen. She said i can't carry a photo of a dead person all the time. But i felt i was protected when i carried the photo with me... and i could feel that my grandma was always with me and protected me and made me at ease...

1st shopping in Aberdeen

2009-11-30T11:06:00.000Z

I went to shopping in the city on saturday. I bought 1 coat from Dorothy perkins cost me 40 pound. It was in sale on saturday the price before discount was 65 pound. Then, i went to the Body shop too. But compared to the price in Melbourne and Malaysia, the price of the body shop here was more expensive and Melbourne was the cheapest. Then, the Baskin robins here also more expensive than in Malaysia. Here 1 scoop cost 2.50 pound was around RM 15, in Malaysia, RM 16++ i could get 3 scoops. It had been a long time i din go for a shopping. I mean for clothes and not for food. I every week will go for food shopping and the feel of food shopping and clothes shopping is totally different. I was veryvery happy on the day and relax a bit. I miss the Bridge Road in Melbourne because there can get many quality clothes in low price.

Now

2009-11-21T20:32:00.000Z

I'm exhausted!!! I'm so stressful!!! I'm so lonely!!! I need a shelter!!! I need love!!! I want to be cared!!! I feel like dying!!!Where is the person whom i suppose to meet?!! I'm tired of waiting!!! I'm sick- homesick!!! I feel chest pain and nausea which are the symptoms of homesick!!! The tear wells up from my eyes!!! T.T Can anyone understand how i feel right now?!!

2 month anniversary

2009-11-19T13:42:00.000Z

Today is 19 Nov 2009, I am in Aberdeen for 2 months!!! I manage to live without my family and friends for 2months. I miss my family and friends!!! I can't believe that i still survive, i thought i will die of loneliness. Time flies, there are 4 more weeks to go for the end of semester. But before the xmas break, I have the mock exam which carry 10% of the final mark. My passion for life decreases in proportional to the duration i stay in Aberdeen because there is no stimulation here. I hate to be alone but most of the time in Aberdeen i'm alone. I become very emotional sometimes can be very happy and sometimes can be very down and even feel like dying. Already 2months here but i haven't met the person i suppose to meet, i'm wondering who he is and where he is now. I should meet the person when i arrived in Aberdeen. He is the person who will take care of me. I think i will meet him before my 22nd birthday. I'm looking forward to my 22nd birthday... I think maybe i will die of loneliness because there is still a very long time to my birthday...

Being a housewife is not an easy job

2009-11-13T22:54:00.000Z

Study abroad, i'm not only playing the role of student but also play the role of a housewife. It is not easy to be a housewife. Besides reading, doing assignments and going to class, i have to check my food storage like groceries, vegie, fruit and meat as well as my tooth paste, shower gel and shampoo every week before i go to the supermarket. I need to buy the food for the whole week so i need to plan very well if not my food will finish early or last longer. And i have to compare the price of each item i want to buy among the supermarket and estimate how much i will spend for the visit. I need to use the least money to get the things i need. After that, i have to write an item list for the visit. Then everyday I need to think what to cook from the ingredients i bought for my lunch and dinner. But usually i eat sandwiches for lunch and i only cook dinner. I hate to wash the pot and pan, so i don't cook using the stove and i only use microwave oven to cook. Using microwave oven to cook, i only need a microwavable bowl and put everything into the bowl and put into microwave oven then cook can eat very easy. And i just need to wash my bowl and spoon. Then i need to vacuum and clean my room as well as washing my clothes every week. It is so tedious to do such work. My student life in Nilai was totally different from here. I didn't buy vegie, fruit and meat every week because i didn't cook every meal in Nilai. I would jz eat my lunch and dinner in the canteen when i was lazy to cook. And in Nilai when i went to giant i didn't really bother the price and i would take whatever i wanted but usually i would put back if i took too much. I had never write the item list when i went to giant in Nilai. In Nilai for almost 3 yrs, i had never bought meat in Nilai because my mum would prepared the marinated chicken then frozen it for me to bring to Nilai. When the start of the semester, my parents would fetch me back to the college and i would bring all the things i needed like shampoo, shower gel, tooth paste, tooth brush and etc from my home. I also brought milo, oat and milk powder from home. I brought every thing from my home when i was in Nilai so basically i didn't buy much thing from giant in Nilai. The things i usually bought from giant were junk food like potato chips, ramen and some snack. In Aberdeen here, i can't bring every thing from my home. My favourate Old Town (hazelnut) White Coffee also can't bring in to UK. I'm going to miss the coffee for the whole year. After the class, i usually go to the library when lunch time i will go back to my hostel and prepare my sandwich and have my lunch then will go to library again and come back around 430pm or 5pm to prepare my dinner. After dinner, i need to do assignment. It is really tired. I hope there is someone cook for me and i can jz eat my meal when i 'm back to the hostel. I'm now only cook for myself and wash my clothes and clean my own room and look after for myself i feel like dying already. I' m wondering how those mothers who need to work and then go back still need to do house work and cook for their family running a family manage to do all these things. They are so amazing. And i feel that house wife is also a professional job and i think i will be a very professional house wife after a few year in Aberdeen because i'm doing the same things as the house wife does currently. I'm a student and also a maid here.

Exhausted

2009-11-11T23:05:00.000Z

Today i had 2 1hr class only but it was very tired today and stress. I have to hand in a lab report tomorrow and it is a group assignment. I was very relax before the morning class because i thought i had done my part of assignment. Then i was told by my group member that my calculation was wrong. Oh my god... i need to recalculate the answer and amend my disccussion!!! Then in thursday morning we need to combine our work and print out to pass up. The lab report here was different from what i had done in Nilai. The lab report here must follow the british journal format. The discussion of the lab report need to be very long like 1 to 2 pages and the introduction need to be around 300 words. It makes our lab report like a journal and it sounds very professional. Hehe... This was the first time i had done my assignment on the due date. Usually i finished all assignments and lab reports a few days before the due date. Besides doing the lab report, i still went to library to read the book... Tired!!!

My plan for the next 10 yrs

2009-11-09T11:22:00.001Z

Now i'm 21 yrs old and in the 3rd yr of my first degree and single and available. When i'm 22yrs old i will get into a relationship. Then during 23yrs old i get my first degree. After that, when i'm 24 yrs old i will get the master degree and start my PhD studies. 5yrs later, i'm 29 yrs old and i get my PhD. Then i will start working in the research field and buy my own properties like houses, share and car. When i'm 30yrs old, it is time to marry. It is too perfect if my life just go on exactly same as my plan. Hehe...

Cherish what u have at the moment

2009-11-07T17:50:00.000Z

I heard that 1 of my school mate pass away yesterday. It was so sad to hear that and it was so sudden. This was the 3rd cases in this year. It was so shocked. They were same age as me- 21 yrs old only. There were so many things for them to do and the world was so beautiful and lovely. I thought their parents would be more sad than we felt. The lives were so fragile and we couldn't predict what would happen the next second. We should enjoy our life and cherish what we had at the moment. Since i heard the news, i had no mood to study and do assignments. It was not sad but i couldn't describe the feeling, heart aching... i think some of u can understand how i feel...

day dreaming

2009-11-03T21:55:00.000Z

Today i had no class but i went to library at 2pm till 430pm. I received the DHL box that contained sweater, jacket and shawl and jiajiang myun and maggie and the herbal soup broth inside from my parents. I was so happy to get all the food. Then i boiled the herbal soup immediately for my dinner. Thinking to travel to the nearer tourist site this weekend but nobody wanted to go with me. I was thinking to go Italy during xmas break but also nobody wanted to go. I had everything here except friends and family. I had no enough friends here. I needed more friends so that they could travel with me. In Malaysia, i could go wherever i wanted to go and sure there were ppl would travel with me. Tomorrow i have 1 class only 11am -12pm because there is 1 class is changed to friday 3pm to 4pm. When i back to Malaysia, i want to go sunway lagoon, shogun japanese buffet, genting highlands, Wh shop to buy clothes... then i also want to go singapore, sentosa... If it is possible, i want to go yunnan with my parents and sister. Then i want to have a bbq party at home replacement for my birthday celebration. My birthday on 4 may so that time i will still in Aberdeen then go back home in july only celebrate. This year i had no birthday celebration too, no birthday cake but got the gifts... Hehe... Now i had got used to the life here already, boring and monotonous. If it is not raining, the weather here is quite nice, not hot like Malaysia. I'm looking forward to the xmas break and it means finish of the semester. After xmas is revision week, then exam...

the 7th sunday in Aberdeen

2009-11-01T12:52:00.000Z

Today was the 7th sunday in Aberdeen. I had already got used to the live in aberdeen and used to be alone. I watched the taiwan drama from you tube during my spare time and facebooking. Then i made sandwiches for my lunch and cooked the dinner everyday. Morning go class, came back prepared lunch then after lunch went to library till evening and came back to the flat to had a cup of coffee with some biscuit. Then prepared for dinner and watching drama while having my dinner. During weekend, i went to supermarket to get the ingredients for my meals. I enjoyed to being alone now. I could do any things i wanted and did not need to bother annd wait for others. I enjoyed my studies here also. The course was interesting but need to put on more effort to score. I thought if i worked hard it should be ok for me. And if it was possible i would like to go Italy in the Xmas break.

Boring, lonely and lazy

2009-10-26T20:24:00.000Z

Today was monday, the 38th day in Aberdeen. I had adapted to the environment here but i still miss my home. I started being lazy to read the books, only read 1 chapter for 1 day. And the sky gets dark around 5pm now and we had turned our clock backward 1 hr and now slower than malaysia for 8hrs and slower than melbourne for 11hrs. Aunty Kim will go back to malaysia in november and attend evi jiejie's wedding. I also wanted to go but i couldn't!!! Miss Aunty Kim and Aunty YeeFun. I miss those days in nilai, PJ, banting and melbourne. I miss those days in secondary school too. I miss all my friends!!! Do u all miss me?!! I miss everyone everyday!!! We should cherish the present. When i was in nilai and banting also kept on complaining boring but i had a lot of fun with nilai family and now i missed those days in nilai,banting and PJ... When i was alone in the room i would look out from the window and thought about those days in banting, and sometimes would think of Mr Gui, Kak Ros, Mr Perin, Dr psycho... they were good and funny sometimes!!! I miss Melbourne too. I went there twice and both trip was 2 mths. I really miss all of the ppl there. Melbourne was very special for me. I like australia. Maybe after i get my degree in Aberdeen, i will take my master in U of Melbourne. It is just a dream and i 'm not sure whether it can be realized or not... Further studies overseas was my dream since i was in primary school and it was realised and i was now in Scotland. When i was walking on the street, i felt that i was dreaming. I was grown up, no longer a little girl like my grandma said. If she knew all these she would be very happy. I miss my grandma so much.

22 October 2009

2009-10-22T20:04:00.000+01:00

Today i had no class. The weather was not good and it had started raining since yesterday morning and the raining had not yet stopped. My mood was just like the weather, very blue. There were a lot of things to do like lab reports and extra reading. I missed my home, missed my friends... And today was the 34th day i had been to Aberdeen. It had already been 1 month in Aberdeen. Time flied, everyday felt like do nothing and it was the time to turn in. I felt very lonely... like nobody around me... Then i also felt very stress. My first assignment i got 12/20 it was a very low mark and felt very disappointed with the mark. And the professor of the subject told me should spent 20hrs per week for extra reading for the subject. When i heard that i almost fainted. 20 hrs per week just for extra reading!!! Reading the book, i also couldn't 100%understand. It was not too deep to understand and the lecture was very brief. It was very tough... I felt that i was a robot everyday doing the same thing, repeat and repeat and repeat... Haiz... miss my home...

Stonehaven trip

2009-10-17T22:27:00.000+01:00

Stonehaven is a village which is near to Aberdeen and it takes about 20 minutes from Aberdeen to Stonehaven just like the journey from nilai to seremban by KTM... Stonehaven is a nice place and the beach there is so so so nice... I like the beach very much... the beach here very similar to the beach in melbourne. It felt like i was in melbourne. And when i saw the sea, i felt like very happy and excited and very familiar. What i can say is it is really similar to melbourne!!! The trip was really really nice and i found sth looked like the 12 apostle in the Great Ocean Road. Then i had the very famous fish and chips in Stonehaven and my friend told me tht it was the top fish and chips in scotland and UK. It tasted okok only not really that delicious as i thought. But the shopkeeper of the fish and chips shop was very good, he gave us discount. We supposed to pay 6pound for the fish and chips but he took 5pound only. 5pound was expensive, right?!! but 4 of us shared the fish and chips and each had to pay 1.25 pound only, was reasonable price... Then we also went to a castle. The castle was not that extravagant like the castle tht i went during the whisky trip. The castle i went during the whisky trip was like the home of princess and the ambience, deco and the furnishings was exactly like the story book. But the castle i went today was not it was more like prison and it made me think of the Form 3 english literature novel "prisoner of zenda". The castle was just beside the sea. The scenery was really nice.

Then when i came back to campus after the trip, i went to ASDA the hypermarket with Emma my flatmate. I had bought the 1 day bus pass so didn't want to waste it so just went to ASDA to buy bread and biscuit. I make sandwiches for lunch everyday so the bread is high demand for me... I posted the photos of the stonehaven trip in facebook and feel free to see the photos...

my life in aberdeen

2009-10-13T22:42:00.000+01:00

Last saturday i went to ASDA and Sainsbury's, both of them were hypermarket like giant and tesco. It was very far, i took a bus for about 40minutes to get there. I went there with my flatmate, Emma from taiwan and another girl stayed the next block of my flat, Gu Xin from China. I went ASDA to buy bread and shampoo and Sainsbury's to buy chicken because the the bread in ASDA cheaper and chicken was cheaper in Sainsbury's. On the way back to campus, in the bus there were 2 local ppl who sat behind me spoke japanese to me. Then i sure said huh?!! Then they said again. But i still couldn't get it. Then they spoke in english and asked whether i was japanese or not. And i said no. Then they asked u r korean. And i said i m malaysian. I didn't think i looked like japanese or korean i looked more like malay, right?!! Perhaps my friend, Emma looked more like a korean. When u are reading this blog, u will wonder why i didn't buy any fruit and vegie, right?!! The reason was i went to another supermarket, Lidl to buy fruit and vegie because the vegie and fruit there were cheaper compared to the 2 i mentioned earlier. Normally i will go Lidl on monday.

Then today i had my first lab class. We supposed to prepare buffer solution for the experiment of determine the pKa of sulphadimidine and each group prepared 1 buffer solution. And my group was preparing the pH8 buffer solution. Then i made a big mistake. I took NaOH in stead of Na2HPO4 and my pH was so high. And other groups were getting the pH closer to the required pH. Then i repeated the preparation again but still high the pH. After 2 times preparing the high pH buffer then i only realized i took the wrong solution. I was wandering y i was so blur... I had now get used to life here but i still miss my home.

Maybe I will go to a place named Stoneheaven this saturday to relax a bit. Because the life is getting busier and busier, a lot work, assignments and books to read.

6 October 2009, 18th day in Aberdeen

2009-10-06T19:18:00.000+01:00

I have been in Aberdeen for 18 days. I miss my home. I have no the feeling of sureness and feel like the things i own today will not be mine tomorrow. And i always feel anxious and worry about this and that especially my course. Maybe all the things like teaching method, coursework presentation and format of lab report are new to me. Frankly said i really can't accept the teaching method here and the learning process here is also different. It is not as easy as i thought before i came to Aberdeen. Before coming here, i thought if i study hard sure can pass the exam with flying colours. Now i realise that to get 1st class honour is not that easy and with my ability can only get a 2nd upper or 2nd lower. But i still wish that i could get 1st honour that's y i feel very stress. And all i can do is read the book everyday and pray hard so that my effort is worth. I need my family to give me support but they are not around me, feel so sad. I miss my family!!! Then, i also stored a lot of dried food like chocolate bar, oat bar, rice, paste, oat and horlick... ... ... like scare no food to eat... Maybe it is 1 of the symptoms that i can't get the feeling of sureness and do not feel secure here. Here like nobody can be trusted and nobody will treat u like a family. That is the problem go to a strange country alone, no good friends, no family and no feeling of sureness. Miss my home!!! T.T

2nd Friday in Aberdeen

2009-10-02T17:54:00.000+01:00

Now is about 6pm. I went to class in the morning from 9 to 11 and from 3 to 4pm. It is friday. I have no idea what to do at the friday night. If in Kluang, sure will go out with my parents to town. I really miss my home. I find it my course is so tough and i worry about whether i can score 50% and above in the exam and get into honour year. Am i very stupid?!! I understand the lecture but when go to the problem solving exercise i really struggle and take a long time to understand and answer. And the questions in problem solving exercise require extra reading to answer. How much is extra- it is a lot. Besides study for answering the problem solving exercise, i need to read extra book for my lecture because the lecturer note rather than lecture handout is not enough for the exam. And some handout i only can access from uni network computer, i can't access from my laptop so i need to go library or computer lab to read them and i can't print it out or save it, that is the problem. In Aberdeen here, i have no other entertainment except going to supermarket buy vegie, meat and fruit and reading. Sometimes facebooking and checking my mailbox. It is very boring and monotonous. Every time i am here writing a blog means that i am very down and miss my family and home so much. Everyday here are the same, no matter it is saturday or sunday. There is no family day here, always alone and feel lonely. Everyday will wait for the time chatting with my parents and sister in skype to come. Only chatting with them i feel i am not alone. I don't like to be alone here!!! I wish i was in melbourne- there are Aunty Kim, Aunty Yeefen... .... ... It is so tough to be here alone, not like in nilai where i can go home every weekends and whenever i want. Here i can't do so... I am not telling my parents that i miss my home so much because that will make them worry about me. But i really miss them and my home. Here nobody will care about you whether you take your meals on time or what are u doing for today. And can't find the warmth at home. I miss my home!!!

the 12th day in Aberdeen

2009-09-30T20:49:00.000+01:00

Today started the first lecture of each subjects i took for this sem. The subjects actually not that tough but required a lot of reading. And i had no mood to read all the books even though i had all the books in front of me. I missed my home very much. It was very tough to live alone here without my family. I needed to buy all ingredients for cooking and cook the meals for myself. It would be very expensive to eat every meals outside. The distance to the supermarket was not short and i had to walk there to get the ingredients to cook. It was exhausted. Taking a bus was also expensive so if i wanted to save money i had no choice but walked. I missed my family!!! my dad, mum, sis and mummy and manfred!!! The feeling got stronger and stronger when i was alone and after the sky was getting dark. It was really hard!!! All the ppl here like the study advisor and student association told us they were going to help us when we had problems, but I had to face all the problems by myself, felt really helpless. Felt like they just say and not really going to help. I felt tired everyday!!! And i felt the weather changed, it became colder and colder.

all these days in aberdeen

2009-09-28T21:07:00.000+01:00

First day in Aberdeen, 19 September 2009- I felt excited, brand new and full of energy to start my new life in Aberdeen by myself. After i unpacked my luggage, i went out alone to get my bedsheet, pillow and duvet. The surroundding is so unfamilliar to me and the people here are all with blue eyes, white skin, gold-coloured hair and english speaking. I just walked around and search for the shop which sold duvet and the things i needed. With the help from people around, i finally got the place. I got the duvet and pillow in a shop like reject shop and when i paid for the things i bought, the cashier asked me whether i needed a plastic bag then i definitely said YES. And for the plastic bag, i was charged 10pence. It was so different from Malaysia. And i was not feel lonely yet. But it was tough and torture to start a new life in a strange place by my ownself. I wished there was someone i could rely on but there was no one here.

Second day, 20 September 2009- It was a nice day. I went out to a supermarket like giant, which called ASDA with my newly known flatmate, Katrina from Holland. It was approximately 45minutes walking distance from my uni to ASDA. On the way, we passed by a TESCO express which sold the things in higher price because it was a 24hr shop like 7-11 in Malaysia. Then, we also saw a big grass field, a golf club on the way to ASDA. Behind of the golf club was a beautiful sea shore. The scenery was so fascinated. After a few minute walk, there was a small hill. And ASDA was just behind the hill. I bought a lot of food like oat, oat bar, lettuce, tomato, plum, bread and etc apart from shampoo and shower gel. Then, it was too heavy to carry all the things we bought and walked back to Uni and we went to a bus stop and took the bus back to uni. The bus fare was 1.50 pound per way and should paid the exact amount and no change. However, i had only 70pence. Luckily the driver was so kind, he let me taking the bus with all the coins i had. I was still feeling good.

Third day, 21 September 2009- I was so busy with the activities, opened bank account and met the girl i met in the airport the first day. Her name was SiQin from China but studied in HK and she was an exchanged student. It was pretty tired for the day but it was just nice to me.

4th day, 22 September 2009- I went to Aberdeen city to get a local SIM with a girl who studied politics from London. Her name was Aretha. Then, i had my first lunch at the hub, the building where the student association and cafe, subway and the food court was loacted with Siqin. Actually, i supposed to had lunch with Darren, an Irish who i knew from UCAS but i was late because i couldn't manage to back on time from the city. Till now i still not yet felt homesick because i was so busy.

5th day, 23 September 2009- I joint the city tour and went to the city again. In the tour, i met Danis, a HK guy whom i knew from UCAS. And i also met a germany girl, a finland girl and a denmark girl. The trip brought me to a lot of places like maritime museum, art gallery and etc. Then i had lunch in the hub with Siqin and Danis instead of having lunch in city because it was too expensive to eat lunch in the city. Then we went to the Society fayre and i signed up for International Student society which cost me 3pound for the membership. And it was a day.

6th day, 24 September 2009- I went to advisor meeting. Dr. Derek Scot, my advisor was so friendly and good. After the meeting, i got my ID and became the real student of The University of Aberdeen. And in the afternoon, i went to a direct entrant meeting and met Jane, a girl from Beijing. The meeting was nice because it served pastries, chips, wine, orange juice and water. I started to miss my home and the food in Malaysia.

7th day, 25 September 2009- I went to ASDA again and bought a slow cooker which was 7pound and it was really cheap it was around RM42. And i bought rice, diced turkey breast meat, capsicum, mange and kiwi. Then in the afternoon Siqin and I had lunch in the hub with Darren. I ate subway sandwich on the day. Then i went to school of medical science meeting. There i met Evelyn, a girl from Belgium she took the same subject as me. The meeting provided us orange juice, apple juice, cadbury chocolate and chips. It was so nice. The meeting was just like a small gathering for the direct entrant of the school of medical science and the lecturers. The lecturers all were with Doctorate so all were called Dr. Then just chit chat with the lecturers and ate drank during the meeting. It was pretty good. But back to the room feel very lonely.

8th day, 26 September 2009- I went to the whisky and castle trip. It was a day trip departed at 9am from the hub and back to the hub at 6pm. It was a wonderful trip. The grassland along the way was so beautiful. I miss my home!!!

9th day, 27 September 2009- It was a Sunday. It was the first time i had not gone out for the whole day since the first day i was in Aberdeen. I cooked rice and vegie and the turkey meat i bought. It tasted nice and not much different from the mixed rice i ate in the hub. I started reading the handout which i downloaded from the webside but i couldn't understand. I miss my home again. Homesick. Feel lonely. I wished there was someone could let me lean on.

10th day, 28 September 2009- It was amazing. My course coordinators were so young. Both of them were holding doctorate and we called them Dr. I found that my course was difficult and felt so down today. I miss my home so much. I wished i could fly back this weekends but i couldn't. My feeling was totally different from the feeling of the first day i had been to Aberdeen. The feeling of exciting, brand new feel were all diminish and maybe disappear. And the full charge energy was flat now.